Happy Birthday.

Yesterday was my roommate Kayln's birthday.
Her boyfriend ordered her some flowers from Pro Flowers and they just came in today.
Aren't they pretty ?? :)

Quote of the Day.

"The only way to predict the future is to have power to shape the future."
          ~ Eric Hoffer

Quote of the Day.

"A thing well done is worth doing."

~ Hugh Leonard

Blow Out.

So today was the 1st home game of the season.
Forreal forreal I don't evn consider the game today a real game.
We beat Delaware State 69-0.
We kept gettn touchdown after touchdown after touchdown.
They really should've ended the game 3rd quarter.

Quote of the Day.

"The past is really almost as much a work of the imagination as the future."
           ~ Jessamyn West

Quote of the Day.

"When unhappy, one doubts everything; when happy, one doubts nothing."
          ~ Joseph Roux

Yesterday.

Lazy day I guess.
Woke up and threw on the 1st thing I saw lol

Quote of the Day.

"The main thing is to know something and to say it."
         ~ Karl Wilhelm Friedrich Schlegel

Big 10.

Indiana University's stadium.
Joint was huge.
&& real nice lol

Quote of the Day.

"The hardest thing is to take less when you can get more."
             - Kin Hubbard

Quote of the Day.

"Nothing which has entered into our experience is ever lost."
          - William Ellery Channing

Indiana.

This past weekend we went to Indiana..
It was okay I guess.
Would've been better if our band director didn't turn down playing at the Indianapolis Colts game during halftime.
Def would've made up for the sucky football game that our school lost Saturday night.
And it would've made up for the fact that I didn't march the halftime show Saturday because I have a UTI =/
I don't wanna get into how I got one.. but yea. =/

<---- colts stadium :)

Quote of the Day.

"My life is every moment of my life. It is not a culmination of the past."

- Hugh Leonard

Dominatrix.

Today at coronation practice I got a new nickname.
Dominatrix.

My escort says that I'm kinda rough at times. And forceful.
My boo says the same thing.
But at times I can't help it. I'm really playful and I love to "wrestle" and play fight.
It's my thing.

But honestly.............
I kinda do wanna try out my dominant side just for one night.
Bondage. Whips. Handcuffs. Chains. Being in control.
Sounds real thrilling. Having a personal whipping boy lls.

And Spencer's gifts doesn't help my curiosity.
They have lots of cheap things that I will gladly order and set up in my dorm room. lls

Quote of the Day.

"The future is no more uncertain than the present."

- Walt Whitman

Coronation.

So last semester I was in a pageant and won the title of Miss Kappa Kappa Psi.
And since I've won that title I have the privilege of being in the coronation of our new Miss South Carolina State University. And I'm super excited ! lol

I like things like this.
Dressing up all fancy and ballroom dancing and stuff. It's fun to me. I love performing.
Partially why I'm still in marching band.
But I just can't wait until then.
yay ! :)

Rumors.

As long as we live I doubt that we'll ever be able to escape rumors.
I'm a sophmore in college and I thought that the rumors and childish antics were left in high school. Apparently I was wrong.
I don't understand how people can just start a rumor about you to try and "ruin" your life.

Since I've been back at school I've been called everything in the book.
For one I've been called a whore. I can ignore that. Cause I know what I am and I know what I'm not.
Then they say I'm fucking the whole band. Okay. I can ignore that too. Cause I know who I'm having sex with and I know who I'm not.
Then they say that I'm stealing peoples men. Lol. Okay. Let me know who's man I'm stealing. Last time I checked the dude that I'm currently talking to is single and I am now his boo. Soooo you can go away with that.
But now... They're saying that I'm pregnant. Oh I know I'm not pregnant for sure. I started my period on Monday. And I've been having periods since I was 9. Never missed one.
But we were in band practice last night and this dude looked at me and was just staring at me and my tummy region. Then said that I looked "bloated" and bigger in my stomach. As if to say I was pregnant or something.
Like wtf. I'm on my period. Of course I'm gonna be bloated. And on top of that my birth control pills have been making me gain weight. I've had a little bit of a tummy since the beginning of the summer. And it's been the same size since then. Hasn't grown a bit.
What pisses me off about that is that he couldn't come up to me and ask me if I was or wasn't. And then I really couldn't say that much to defend myself and tell him off since this was in the band room and we were all at attention. Couldn't just yell out across the band room and tell him off.
But then that also makes me think what have other people been saying. Because this dude is gay and listens to a lot of rumors and gossip. Which means people been talking about me.
But I mean when haven't they been talkin.. *shrug*
But I honestly wonder what the next rumor is going to be.
Cause the intensity of them keep creeping up on the scale.

When will people grow up ?

First Dates.

Hello world. I'm 18 years old and this past Saturday I went on my first date.
18 years of age and never been on a date. SMH

But this weekend the band went to Daytona Beach to play against Bethune.
After the game, me and him decided to not follow curfew and go out.
So we walked on the beach then went to play mini golf. I lost by 2 points. Two friggin points ! How sad is that ? lol . And then we went to like this Greek or Italian place. I have no idea which one it was. But we shared 20 pc bbq wings. Then we walked on the beach some more and then we had sex on the beach... Didn't get back to the hotel til like 5 am. Just in time to take a shower, pack up, and be back on the bus by 5:30 to pull off at 6.
lmao !

First date and I'm fulfilling one of my fantasies.

But don't get me wrong. I'm not a whore or anything. And I'm not a person that has sex on the 1st date and ish.
Shoot my body count is still LESS than one hand.
I've had plenty of "boyfriends," friends with benefits (not all benefits), and ppl that I've just talked to and hung out with.
I just never went on a date with any of them. Like a single, one-on-one date where he picked me up from my house, took me out, all that. NEVER.
So this new boo of mine took me on my 1st date.
So it's not like I just met him and then we had sex lol . I've known him for a while lls.

But yea..
Woot woot to first dates :)

Compromise.

At one point in my life I found myself compromising a lot. But it never benefited me. It was always for the sake of the other person and I never ended up happy. All because "we" wanted to "compromise." 

But was I really compromising or was I setting myself up for failure and allowing myself to be unhappy.

See I think that compromise is a word that is used lightly and to permit double standards. 

And that doesn't surprise me since it has two meanings. 

• As a noun it means, a settlement of differences by mutual concessions; an agreement reached by adjustment of conflicting or opposing claims, principles, etc., by reciprocal modification of demands.
• As a verb it means, to expose or make vulnerable to danger, suspicion, scandal, etc.

So...

Would you compromise your happiness for someone elses ?   

Or would you worry about your well being, your safety, and your happiness and just let them be unhappy ? 

Starting Over.

I haven't posted anything since April so I decided to delete all my posts and start all over again.

I'm not giving any introductions or anything else.
Just read and you'll find out what this "blog" is about.